I received a call from one of my best friends who now lives half way around the world and we hardly ever talk…which made the call so much sweeter. But she went on and on about how much she LOVED Eat, Pray, Love the book. She was surprised that she was reading it and that she even picked up what has now become a cliched testament of a woman’s search for balance and solace after leaving her home, her marriage and traveling the world to find her sense of self.

But that’s beside the point…

She was talking about how she loved it and that it connected with everything she felt. And so I rented the movie again and watched it with my roommate last night.

And yes, there are many parts where the plot seems to drag on and on and on… But overall I so get it!

So many have declared this Liz woman to be a narcissistic, self-pitying, cry baby and they were right to an extent but there is so much more to this character than meets the eye….

I feel like I am in this place where I have completely lost myself and I do not know where I am, why I am here at this point, and most of all…where is GOD!

I feel like He is gone and I have lost myself. I call on His name and He is there but I feel so dirty and broken and so full of self-condemnation that I no longer deserve His love. And I AM SO WRONG! And I know that but I just do not understand it for now. I am striving…for Him, His love, and all that comes with that and…

I know what it is like to feel completely lost, I have no direction and no idea where I go from here.

But still I am clinging to Him, to His grace, to His love, and to His understand.

Because He holds me in the palm of His hands and He will never leave me or forsake me. So I chose to cling to His Truth and leave the rest behind.

In the end Gilbert finds love and companionship and that is exactly what I need now…His love and His companionship to make me whole again in the way that only He can.