It seems as of late that I have been consumed with thinking about my future and finding a husband. It seems as though everyone around me is thinking about relationships and the future and marriage and having children. And I have been caught up in that search for physical pleasure. 

And I have been caught up with worldly ideals of love and the sexual content of that love. And I have lost sight of true love. I have lost sight of TRUE LOVE — GOD Is LOVE. He made me for love. To love him and marriage is not just attraction or passion or anything that is physical it is a bond, an attempt to find solace in this world, a partner and friend. Marriage should be God ordained and my husband will be a lover of God first and my best friend and companion, second.

I have forgotten that He is the lover of my soul, that He knows every part of me, and He has given me promises. I was side-track for a bit but I realign my sights on God, the plans that He has for me and the promises He has given me.

I will trust in him, forevermore, and wait on Him until I find the man that is right for me. But it will not be an erotic or physical attraction but something linked to the eternal and to our passion for Jesus and all that he has in store for us. It will be so much more than this world has to offer because it will be from God himself.

I set my eyes on you, oh Lord and I will stop chasing other lovers because they will not satisfy me in the way that you can. I will drink deeply and seek your face, your kingdom first and foremost.